Patience

I know that God has instilled patience in me, but man sometimes I wonder how much. I haven't written in a while because really nothing has happened. Other than trying to keep my head above water. Have a hard time with trying to get ready for school, wondering if I will be ok this semester. I was staring at my daughters pics on the wall all day and realized that those pics I have on the wall are not my baby girl anymore. I don't have a baby girl anymore she is a big girl now. Lately I have had to take moments for myself and BREATHE. Just breathe inhale and exhale. Times are tough and I know that the Lord has a plan for me, between me and you I wish I could just take a look in the future just to make sure my family is ok and I could breathe a little easier. I know that can't happen though, I just have to have patience and faith. My grandfather is in the hospital dealing with doctors who seem to know nothing. He had surgery becase they said that he had a large mass in his back side. Well they (the doctors) removed the mass and then in the next breathe they told my grandmother they accidently cut a nerve. WHAT!!!!! I was so angry I could feel my pulse in my teeth. My grandmother called everyone and told them the next day (after the surgery) he could not feel his left leg. Well that put a frinzy of everyone telling my grandmother that she needs to sue the doctors. I told her that she needed to worry about my pop and not worry about lawyers due to his body needs time to get well. Right now a couple days later he is now just starting to move his leg. Thank you Jesus!! I just pray for my family all day, I feel that I am a chatterbox in God's ear. I have to accept the path that he has planned for me even though I want to stray away I know that he knows best for me!